So yes as you can read on the title , friendships .
I decided to talk about this topic as it has been bothering me a lot lately , & by a lot , I literally mean A LOT .
There's this boy , a dear friend of mine , his name is Ian , we've been friends since Secondary 1 but we only got real tight towards the end of Secondary 2 & I was soooo psyched to hear that he was gonna be in my class for the next two years :-D
We had a clique , comprising of him , me , Shar & Ish . I loved all of them so so so much . Ish was a year older than us so that meant she couldn't spend much time with us due to her preparations for her Os . You see , the thing about Ish , was that she was somehow like our glue , keeping us together . So when Ish wasn't there , there were bound to be conflicts . I was fine with Shar , really fine . But the problem lied between me and Ian . We just couldn't see eye to eye . Like he couldn't accept my ideas & yea , vice versa . But we tucked it away cause we didn't want it to affect our friendship ...but how long can you pile things up , till they make a mess out of things , right ? So yea , one day , he couldn't take it anymore and just snapped at me because of something I had said earlier that bothered him ... I couldn't take it either , I wasn't one who was gonna sit there and tolerate comments about it , I was stubborn as heck & obviously I had a few things to say to him as well ... So we fought ... It was really bad . And since Ish was gone , Shar had to be the glue , it was not like she had a choice , she made us apologise and set things straight again . But Ian and I both knew , it wasn't gonna be the same again , things started to get more awkward , we talked lesser in class and crack less jokes with each other or about each other . The thing about Ian was that he was really funny and he would lighten up my mood anytime , he would know when I was feeling down / on my period ( moodswings ) / had a new eyecandy . He knew what I'd order at Macdonalds , like what I'd add to my burger & what I didn't want . I didn't realise this while I was friends , only when we drifted apart , I then realised .. I guess it's true how people say that you only realise the importance of something when it's no longer present in your life . It hurt because I wanted things to be the same and I really wanted our friendship back ... A few months later , we fought again , making things a MILLION times worse :-(
& now , I just really want him to know that I'm terribly sorry for whatever I have done ... I really want our friendship back but for both of us , our pride matters ... oh well ..
So yea , he was idk ... sigh , really important I guess , but I realised that too late .
So that's about it for today , have a great day everyone !! x :-)
( only know you love him when you let him go )
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